oh, this week. this damn week. i’ve had a pretty bad cold & subsequent chest infection – with extra gross hacking cough included. having asthma, this tends to make things worse so there’s been a fair bit of gasping for air and genuinely feeling like i could easily die (luckily a short round of steroids have helped, i will probably need antibiotics too). i’ve broken a tooth that was already partly broken, had a few panic attacks and moments of general ‘what is the point’, our new to us boiler briefly broke …and jeez, the list just goes on. on top of everything else i’m stressed and worried about, i feel like i’m on the very edge of completely losing it.
i have had some good moments though, like getting these collage postcards from lovely supal, seeing moments of beauty in nature and the more mundane, my cat being extra cute (i think she’s enjoying actually having heat in the flat), and trying miso soup for the first time. good stuff. as bad as a day or week (or month) can be, i really look on these moments to get me through.