my goodness the past couple weeks have been overwhelmingly stressful. overall july has been pretty damn awful and i really hope that august will be at least a little better.
i guess the most momentous thing that happened (on a personal level, anyhow) is that i FINALLY went to the doctor and said i need help with my mental health, and more specifically that i wish to see a therapist. i have various issues that have developed over the years, some since childhood and others a little more recent, but the biggest, darkest cloud of them all has been depression. i’m a bit upset that i’ll have to wait a minimum of 2 months to see someone though.
i’m really annoyed with myself that it’s not something i’ve asked for help with before as i know i need it, and really i should have tried to get help in my teens. but hey laura, why not wait ’til you’re almost 30?! good one. as the saying goes – better late than never!
alongside this, my knee and shoulder joints have been a bit worse than usual, which, as you can imagine has limited my motion a bit. i don’t know if it’s the changeable weather making it flare up or life stresses, but either way i wish it’d go away for a bit! ahh, i don’t live in a very good body. i’m *still* waiting for a rheumatology appointment – have absolutely no idea when that’s going to come through, but hopefully it’s not too far off as i’d love to have some clarity as to what my body is trying to do to me.
good things include: a delicious sandwich, a press trip to the new next store in swansea (and delicious curry after), ava being her ususal cute self, making a few collages, hydrangea everywhere and meeting up with laura.