just like that the first week of january is almost done. the one thing i do like about the calendar starting over is the curiousness of what the year will bring. of course, this does still apply throughout the rest of the year too. i don’t do resolutions (i do have goals, but they’re ongoing or ones i set throughout the year) so, for me, the new year brings a renewed sense of ..i wouldn’t necessarily say positivity, more ..curiosity. no matter how much you plan, you truly never know where life will take you. which is both exciting and scary.
there’s many things i’ve missed out on talking about and other things i need and want to take photos of, but for now this’ll do. also a long overdue video!
do you have any goals or plans for the year? do you prefer to keep them secret or put them out into the world? i think i’m a mix of the two. let me know!
snapshots of my week – 6th january was last modified: 08:00 by laura redburn
so at the beginning of last week i finally had the rheumatology appointment i’ve been waiting for most of the year for. if you can recall, i had fears that i would leave feeling fobbed off or that i wasn’t listened to. glad to say neither was the case. i mean, i suppose it could have gone a little better, but for a first appointment my anxiety was mostly put to rest.
i’ve been given a preliminary diagnosis of fibromyalgia but also had blood taken and a few xrays to rule out other things. i have to go back in february (on valentines day, ha!) for my results and i guess to discuss things further. i had suspected that he would say fibromyalgia yet at the same time i know some people do get diagnosed with it because their doctor or consultant can’t see any real obvious symptoms of anything else. it’s a bit tricky i guess. i do suspect i have a few related issues so would be good to get official diagnosis of those too.
so, a little clarity, right? better than none.
other than that this week has kind of just mushed into one big nothingness. which, for once hasn’t necessarily been bad. i’ve been feeling so drained and frazzled that i think i needed it. i’m finding it hard right now to even think of more words/remember my week so i’ll leave it there.
this’ll be my last post til the new year (unless there’s something i just have to share here) – hope you enjoy the holiday period! in the meantime you can find me on instagram and twitter.
snapshots of my week – 19th december was last modified: 08:00 by laura redburn
my brain feels a bit empty this week, or, at least right now. i’ve actually been really productive and gotten loads of things done i’ve been putting off, as well as making some new work and coming up with plans and ideas, but it seems to come in bursts, in between which it feels like my brain just switches off.
in the past few months i feel like my brain has gone through some inperceiveable shift, like a switch somewhere was turned off and i find it really hard to focus and remember things well. i’ve had this brain fogginess before and i know that if it clears again it’ll inevitably reappear, but it’s intensely frustrating. i know there’s a better more function-able version of myself in there and it’s like it’s fighting to get out but ultimately giving up.
it’s hard to explain but i know there are others that go through this. brains and bodies are very strange aren’t they.
snapshots of my week – 2nd december was last modified: 08:00 by laura redburn