oh, this week. this damn week. i’ve had a pretty bad cold & subsequent chest infection – with extra gross hacking cough included. having asthma, this tends to make things worse so there’s been a fair bit of gasping for air and genuinely feeling like i could easily die (luckily a short round of steroids have helped, i will probably need antibiotics too). i’ve broken a tooth that was already partly broken, had a few panic attacks and moments of general ‘what is the point’, our new to us boiler briefly broke …and jeez, the list just goes on. on top of everything else i’m stressed and worried about, i feel like i’m on the very edge of completely losing it.
i have had some good moments though, like getting these collage postcards from lovely supal, seeing moments of beauty in nature and the more mundane, my cat being extra cute (i think she’s enjoying actually having heat in the flat), and trying miso soup for the first time. good stuff. as bad as a day or week (or month) can be, i really look on these moments to get me through.
snapshots of my week – 24th february was last modified: 08:00 by laura redburn
i fell in love this week. despite having lived in cardiff for almost 7 years now, i’ve never been to bath. which is a bit silly really, as it’s so close, and about the same distance away from me as bristol. pretty much everyone i told this to had a look of disbelief on their faces, ha. but it was so worth the wait. despite the cold and dull (and at times rainy) day, i instantly fell for this city. i can’t even imagine how excitable i’d get about it on a sunny day.
though i had a few suggestions of places to visit, i decided i’d rather wonder around slightly aimlessly and see where my feet and my camera would take me. my main reason for being there was to visit the fashion museum, for a special preview of their latest exhibition, but i’ll talk about that in a bit.
doesn’t that blanket look inviting? other than books, buying blankets is probably my other main weakness. i justify it with the fact that most of them are second hand/vintage and that my body temperature control has never been normal, so i’m either ridiculously cold or unbearably hot. there’s seemingly little inbetween.
my goodness my brain has been all over the place lately. brain fog has hit me HARD. i’ll have moments or part of a day of being ‘on’ but for the most part it’s like i’m not all here – like something has snatched my attention and won’t give it back to me. i still feel like myself (one of my biggest fears is lack of control of my mentality and personality – which is why i rarely drink) but it’s still hard to deal with when you know you’re capable of so much more. it’ll take time, but it will pass. that’s what keeps me going.
that, and notes and lists. so many notes and lists to remind me to do things, and notes to remind me to look at the notes. and alarms as a backup just incase. honestly it’s ridiculous but you do what you can to cope, don’t you?
another thing that’s keeping my spirits up is knowing that spring will be here soon. hopefully that means less joint pain and a clearer mind as well as more colour in nature, slightly less biting wind and a general sense of ‘ahhh’.
hopefully i can get back to my ‘old self’ soon and have something more interesting to say, and more varied content too!
snapshots of my week – 27th january was last modified: 08:00 by laura redburn