life has been tough lately but there are always good things.
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coeliac disease – let’s talk about it
i was diagnosed with coeliac disease about 6 years ago, but it goes back a bit further than that, and i’ve been wanting to write about this and my experience and diagnosis for such a long time now. it’s coeliac awareness week this week, so what better time eh? there might be a bit of graphic imagery (in word form) so be aware of that. also, i will warn you that this post is going to be long, and i may go off on tangents.
let’s start at the beginning. it’s vague to me but surely part of the story.
i remember as a young girl not being allowed to eat wheat. i don’t know the what’s and when’s and whatnot. i don’t know if i’d had some reaction or if it was something a doctor suggested or something else. i can’t even remember how long this lasted. i do have one distinct memory of having to eat ryvita instead of bread and being utterly disappointed. though the latter part of my childhood and teens though i seemed to be ‘fine’ with all things wheat (and gluten too i guess).
but late in 2010 i started getting really ill. i had put it down to the stress of moving a few months prior and starting uni, as well as a few other things. but i got constantly more and more fatigued and my stomach always felt bad in one way or another. then, in december i basically spent a whole month on the loo. it was horrible, incredibly stressful and depressing, and so confusing. i remember crying my eyes out on multiple occasions because i was so scared and didn’t know what was wrong with me.
as i’ve said a few times recently, life has been particularly tough so far this year, and especially the past couple of weeks.
despite all my best efforts and trying the power of positive thought, life keeps throwing all sorts of curve-balls. i feel like i’ve done something karmically wrong to deserve this, but life has always felt like a constant struggle, so maybe it’s just the way my life is meant to be.
this past month has been a particularly hard one. i know (hope) things will get a bit easier in the coming months, but it’s really hard to try to keep afloat when you feel like you’re drowning with a lead weight tied to your feet. regardless, there are always good things. fleeting moments or something a bit longer lasting – they truly do help to keep me going. things such as: