as i’ve said a few times recently, life has been particularly tough so far this year, and especially the past couple of weeks.
despite all my best efforts and trying the power of positive thought, life keeps throwing all sorts of curve-balls. i feel like i’ve done something karmically wrong to deserve this, but life has always felt like a constant struggle, so maybe it’s just the way my life is meant to be.
still, i persevere and try my best to be positive, to always be a kind person and not to be a burden. saying that, i do hope things ease up for a while, soon. that would be genuinely wonderful, and most welcomed.
– when something ‘clicks’ in your mind and you realise something. – finding out a bottle of cold water is more effective (but more awkward) and longer lasting than a cold flannel. – finally writing out a list of foods i do/should avoid, thus helping myself feel less ill. – having a good wooden hand fan. used one for years but they’re so helpful. – finding a gluten free cereal that’s as cheap as ‘normal’ ones. – going to cardiff museum recently. need to go more! – looking through old photos. – writing these posts. if i haven’t lately, they force me to think about what i’m grateful for. – cute dogs on the internet. – taking small steps to become more organised. – seeing my plants grow.
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this past month has been a particularly hard one. i know (hope) things will get a bit easier in the coming months, but it’s really hard to try to keep afloat when you feel like you’re drowning with a lead weight tied to your feet. regardless, there are always good things. fleeting moments or something a bit longer lasting – they truly do help to keep me going. things such as:
– getting back into making videos. i’ve missed it! i’m always filming bits and then not using them. – reeses cups. a perfect little treat that doesn’t feel too ‘naughty’. – wearing favourite clothes i’ve not worn for a while. feeling how soft they are and revelling at the colours & patterns. – tending to my plants. – spring-time rearing its head, little by little. – finding a magnolia tree near me that i could actually get near, to pretend it was the one in my nans garden that i so loved as a child. – marvelling over colour combinations. – going for a walk on a sunny day and actually feeling warm. – this book. – ‘the warm tile’ (basically, one tile in our kitchen heats up when the heating is on. it makes me happy to stand on it.)
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wow, i can’t believe i’ve regularly blogged here for 4 years now. it doesn’t seem like that long at all. i’ve had blogs before this over the years, and even on this blog i previously only updated on very rare occasion. so, i class my blog (rather than blogging) birthday from when i started blogging on a regular basis, which was pretty much four years ago to this date.
i wish i had some interesting or useful insight to give, but really, my main thing to say is to share what you love and have passion for. it will be hard to keep up if you’re doing something just for the sake of it, or writing about various things because it’s ‘what other people do’. i can understand that if blogging is your job it’s a little harder, and of course there are times you’ll lose passion or lack your creative sparkle for a while.
it’s okay to take breaks (which you don’t need to apologise for). it’s okay to share something just because you’re proud of it, or because you want to share for the sake of sharing. it’s okay to be yourself – however weird or ordinary that is. not every post has to be the best thing you’ve ever written or created. you don’t have to be a writer, a photographer, a stylist or any other seemingly infinite variable. essentially, you just have to be you and that will help you find your passion if you’ve not already found it.
perhaps blogging will even help you discover more about yourself. perhaps it will make you more confident, and more willing to see things from other peoples point of view. perhaps you will find (or create) a blog that shows beauty in unexpected forms and will help you create memories that you will be so thankful for. perhaps you’ll make friends and acquaintances that will help you though bad times even if they can’t be there in person. perhaps you’ll learn new skills and find a passion inside of you that you never knew existed.
i think, as much as people like to pull down the idea of ‘being a blogger’ it can really mean so much, in so many different ways. some big, some small. like everything in life, the action of blogging has it’s consequences, and if you can put something good into the world, even if it’s just into one persons life just for a moment, then it’s been worthwhile.
this blog for me will always be a place where i can share happinesses, big and small. it used to be that i would never want to share ‘bad’ things, but over the years i’ve realised even sharing bad memories and situations can help other people. i know i’m not particularly eloquent, and by no means will i ever call myself a writer, but i do hope when i share much more personal things like when i’ve talked about anorexia, body image, suicide, illness and more, that i can help someone out there feel less alone. sometimes it’s very hard to talk, and writing these things down helps me as much as it may potentially help someone else.
but first and foremost, this blog is a place to share my work. my life long love of photography and small things that make life worth living. oh, and colour of course. lots of colour.